So, I'm going back to LA.

I've actually known this for a week or so, but I am so horrified by the whole thing that I was unable to actually discuss it before now.

You see, Mom's computer is down, so I was checking her email, but I think that I may have not checked it for a few days before I left, because I checked it after coming home and found an email from Cathey at my father's commercial agency, saying that she's interested possibly in representing me for voice-over and could I come in for an in-office audition.

Which means that I have to go back to LA as soon as the show is over. And I am so incredibly unhappy, I can't even believe it. It's actually rather embarrassing complaining about something like this that seems like such a great opportunity, but I don't want to go back to LA.

Omar asked me if I am afraid of success, but that's not it--I would love to be successful, but I don't choose success over living my life the way I choose, meaning in New York, extremely independent, with Omar.

I'd love to make a living in voice-over, are you kidding? They give you truckloads of money and you never have to comb your hair or learn any lines, but if the agency accepts me, that means I'll have to stay out there for awhile and audition. Mom says that once I book a couple of jobs I can come back to NY, but how long might that take?

But hoping that she won't accept me is foolish. It's what I want, there's a chance that I could actually make money acting, but I also want to live the life that I have chosen.

So, I'm going back. It's only a couple of months out of my life, it's not a disaster, I have to be back by June for the French and for Claire and Josh's wedding, but dear God let me come back before then.

Today's horoscope:
Pragmatism is using what you know. Tool builders create things to enhance the human body's performance. Getting the right answer on the first guess would take all the magic out of experimentation.

One year ago today:
"Are you saying she's psychic? That's like something out of science fiction." "You live on a spaceship."

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