So yesterday was the reading for Born Yesterday, which was just wonderful.

Omar was all putting his foot down, saying that if we didn't get an audience for this one then he was going to want to take a break from them, because of course it's all very well and good that we do them for ourselves and so on, but we want a goddamn audience anyway!

Fortunately, there was the biggest audience that we have had for a long time there to see an absolutely kickass reading. Wende was born to play Billie, Al was completely perfect as Harry (that was my casting, I knew the second it was suggested that we had to have him), Jim and Barry and Ronnie and John and Moira, everyone was terrific. I was so happy.

I'd love to do it for real, it's the kind of show where I could sit back and let the brilliant actors do what they wanted and then take all of the kudos. I'd replace Jim with Omar, though, not that Jim wasn't just fine, he was great, but it's a great role for Omar and I think that he and Wende would mesh together really well.

The set is a problem, of course, but when is it not? And it doesn't have to be a bi-level set, it just has to look kind of shmancy, and we can do shmancy when required.

The fact that Omar's harem (his wife and cousin) can't stand me is really turning into a problem. Not for me, it doesn't bother me a bit, but it's making him unhappy, so I wish that there were a solution.

The funny thing is that, were I in their place, I would act exactly the same way--I am just as jealous and possessive and territorial and passive-aggressive as they are, I just fight against it. One of the things that he likes about me is that I am not passive-aggressive towards him, but because that is my true nature, I can recognize what they are doing and why they are doing it.

He told me last night that this is the first time in his life that he has had to keep his friends in different groups. I told him that it's not his problem, like in wedding etiquette they always say that you should invite who you want to invite, and if someone won't come because they aren't speaking to Uncle Frank, that is completely their problem. In this case, I am completely willing to be friendly, they are the ones who flat-out refuse to have anything to do with me. They are waiting for me to disappear.

What they haven't figured out is that I am not going anywhere, that I fully intend to be a part of Omar's life until he dies. And of course, they aren't going anywhere either, they are permanent parts of his life, they are his family. Which means that everyone needs to suck it up and get along.

I'm perfectly willing to be friendly for his sake, and if they aren't that is their problem. We all love him, why can't that be enough? But as far as they are concerned, I have no place and no rights and certainly am not a factor in their lives.

And again, all it does is drive him away from them and make him want to spend less time with them, so I don't mind. How funny to not be the one acting childish and bitchy! How unusual! I dig it.

Lenten entries missed:

An Bei apparently spent most of Lent trapped under a large rock, unable to get to the computer, since she only wrote the one entry, but at least it was about a whole bunch of things that may or may not be occurring, so that was totally worth waiting for!!

Today's horoscope:
Hard work is most effective in easy moments. A foretaste of the result sweetens your process that much more. As long as the Stars are smiling upon you, crisis is far from your doorstep.

One year ago today:
Okay, probably everyone else on earth figured that out a long time ago, but it was certainly a shock to me to think that Barry Manilow wrote a song about shooting his wad.

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