I've been getting a few emails lately about my getting mixed up with a married man, which is clearly entirely my fault for not being as clear as I could be.

Omar is not a married man. Well, he is in that he's married, but he and his wife are not a married couple. They have been separated and living in different states for a decade, and in that decade he had a seven year relationship with someone else whom he in fact lived with. They are actually currently getting a divorce, but as far as anyone is concerned, the divorce will not make them any less married than they have been since the early '90s.

Just so you know, I can't be a homewrecker if there is no actual home to wreck.

So yesterday I learned the second act, or most of it. Or I mostly learned it. So I'm sort of off-book on twenty pages. Twenty out of 120. Pages, that is. Okay, this is sounding less and less impressive.

On Wednesday night we had the first rehearsal with John, who had to swim through the torrents in order to get here, getting lost twice, since driving in Jersey affects him the same way as it does me, i.e. he can't do it at all.

He'll be good in the role, though, he's got these big blue mick eyes, and this great attitude towards the role. I'm so glad that not only I chose him, but he chose us back. Tomorrow we'll be seeing Geoff for the first time and we'll know whether we have a strong cast all the way through or not.

So last night I signed up for online personals.

Yes! Me! I did! After all of these years dragging my feet over it, seeing it work and not work for many of my friends, finally I decided what the hell. I think that the two things that threw me over the edge were a close friend who is doing it just because she is coming out of a long-term relationship and has never actually dated, and an email from someone I know saying that it would be good for me just to kind of get some practice dating. So hey, why not?

I doubt that I will actually date anyone--somehow I cannot imagine anyone seeing my profile and leaping to his feet shrieking, "At last, I have found her!" but I guess my way of looking at things these days is, what the hell, why not? It won't break my heart if nobody wants to date me, but at least I'm putting myself out there.

And yes, of course, there is the whole non-homewrecking Omar situation. But we are in a holding pattern right now, and my getting practice dating has nothing whatever to do with him, and may put less pressure on our relationship.

So hey, we'll see.

Lenten entries missed:

Eucharis decided to cover her head, then changed her mind, welcomed gin and tonic season, and finished school. Congrats, Eucharis!

Today's horoscope:
At some point today, the Stars switch to your side. Your improvements are almost complete. You've suffered long enough for this cause. The weekend will be a time to celebrate it.

One year ago today:
How spicy do I like things? You know the regular, non-spicy beef and broccoli? I find that nice and zingy. Pretty sad, huh?

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