I truly believe that if I don't get away from this stress in my life that I will die soon. It's agonizing. I am thinking that maybe I should look for another job, but doing what? And I HATE looking for jobs, that's why I stay places for eight years, because nothing is worse. Remember, all change is bad. But it's the only way I could possibly get a jump in salary, and everything is so fucking tense here that I dream about walking away one day and never coming back. Of course, I actually like this job and the people that I work with, I don't want to go, I really don't. But I can't take much more of this.

I need to see Omar, but won't until Monday. I can't bear not to see him for so long, once a week doesn't cut it. He has become so important to me, like the air and light. We're going to Lancaster next week. I wish it was today. And I wish that I never had to come back.

Today's horoscope:
Land a high-paying contract. Win someone's heart. Drive home the perfect words with expressive face and hand gestures. Under these Stars, Virgo is slated for a decisive victory.

One year ago today:
Um, what's going on? Are hundred dollar bills going to be raining from the sky? Am I going to win the American Photo contest? Will Russell Crowe start pounding on my door, weeping with love for me?

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