Sometimes I think that it would be easier not to have any feelings. Man, wouldn't that be great? Can you imagine? Or maybe if I were in a coma or something and I could live in my own head all the time and I wouldn't know the difference.

I was in an astonishingly, wildly bad mood yesterday, and for no discernable reason. I was irrational and prickly and snapped at everyone who got in my way. The show was good, though, really good and that cheered me up. I watched a lot of it rather than just listening to it, and found myself truly enjoying and being entertained by it.

When I got home, I had gotten Rose Tattoo and Moon for the Misbegotten, the shows that we want to do next year, in the mail.

Rose has three children and Italian accents, so I threw it across the room and picked up Moon instead. I read most of it out loud, ignoring how late it was getting and how little sleep I would have.

And wow. Just wow. I had forgotten exactly how close to home that sucker hits, how much of what Josie says could come out of my mouth, spending scenes and scenes pretending not to be in love with the man in front of me, you think I can do that? Yeah, me too. It should be an interesting journey.

You know what made me laugh, though? As you may recall and as I mentioned at every rehearsal, Orpheus is all about Omar's cock. Well, I'll be getting some of my own back, since Moon is all about my tits. We'll have to make up another limerick, 'cause it's payback time.

In terms of the cast, it looks like we have John Wood for real, since I hear that he seems to be bringing it up every single time everyone goes to the bar. God, I hope so, he'd be perfect in the role.

Here was my long horoscope for yesterday, speaking of things hitting home:

"An emotionally complicated issue has been ignored for too long and today it finally catches up with you. Keeping busy is a good way to take your mind off the things that are bothering you. Beware of the volume suddenly turning up inside your head. It's in your best interest to deal with this situation as quickly and as honestly as possible. Distraction at the wrong moment could lead to big mistakes. You can't go wrong if you speak about what's in your heart. There is no right or wrong opinion."

You can't go wrong if you speak what's in your heart? Since when? And how likely do you think that will be? Right, not very.

Today's horoscope:
Communication is filled with urgency. Be careful in assigning deep meaning to random noise. Certain elements create more energy than you can realistically handle.

One year ago today:
Or, as I put it, she's not so far up my ass that I can't breathe.

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