8 March
Yesterday I had, basically, a practically perfect day.
First thing was the radio interview, which made for a lovely start to the day. One rarely feels both important and amusing at 7.30a, so that made me spend the day walking tall with my head up and a bounce in my step.
Next was Weight Watchers.
Now, I didn't go last week, and because I wrote the entries after the fact, I rather forgot to write about it, but what had happened was that I didn't do that well and I ate too much, and I skipped going because I was embarrassed.
This is, of course, idiotic, but it's all part of my personality. So much comes easy to me that if it suddenly doesn't, then I give up immediately. I have, as I have said before, quite a sense of entitlement, which means that I am under the impression that I am a person who does not fail or do things badly ever, unless, you know, I can tell an amusing story about it.
That makes me look humble, you see, because I am telling a story about something really stupid that I have done or whatever, but I'm also showing off at how well I tell the story.
So if I am really truly failing at something that I do not want to fail at, I hide and I lie and I ignore the fact that it happened. So I was going to say that I had overslept accidentally, but I ended up forgetting to tell about it.
The point of all this is that a weak character coupled with a healthy ego is probably my most defining personality point, it is something that I struggle with, or more likely, don't, but this time I really don't want to screw up again, and I thought that if I skipped a second week, I would never go back again, and I would regret it so much. So I went.
I was late, of course, so I ran into meeting, where they were talking about things that you do to sabotage yourself. There's a co-incidence. Then Michael said, "How many people are the kind of people who really have to work for everything, nothing comes easily? Most of us, I'm sure..." and he went on about how the one quality that people who lose weight and keep it off have in common is stick-to-it-iveness.
And I raised my hand and I did the one thing that I had no expectations of doing, I told them what I just told you, that things come easy for me, so when they don't, I immediately give up. And that I had skipped last week. I was very surprised that I admitted it, but it seemed appropriate, and I was no longer ashamed.
After meeting, I got on the scale. And I had lost 4.2 lbs. I shrieked. I had done well this week, but not perfect, and I thought there was a possibility of a loss, but nothing like that! I've lost 17 lbs altogether.
The third great thing was also at Weight Watchers, because two weeks before, when I had been there last, I thought that maybe I had lost my clip-on sunglasses.
Well, I knew that I had lost them, I meant that maybe I had lost them there. I hadn't been wearing them, but I had lost the case so I've been keeping them in my coat pocket to keep them safe and unscratched. However, I also took my coat off and dropped it all higgledy-piggledy on the chair, and the only thing I could imagine was that it had fallen out.
So I tried to call, but they don't have phones at the meeting offices, you see, so I had to wait until I went back. I have really afraid that they wouldn't have them, and since they came with the frames, I probably wouldn't be able to get another pair.
But, since yesterday was the perfect day, they were there! At that point it was 10.30a, and already three wonderful things had happened!
The fourth thing was later in the day, late at work. We had been having a huge crisis about one of our vendors that one of our offices thinks hung the moon, and we rather think is a giant pain in the ass.
Then we got an email, cc'd to absolutely everyone and their mothers, from one of the lab heads in that office, saying about how tiresome it was to have to struggle with Accounting and Purchasing and about how difficult we were making it, and about how important this vendor is and how we really needed to get it together.
I read this, rolled my eyes and went on with my life, because everyone blames everything on Accounting, they spend spend spend like drunken sailors and make rash promises about when they will get paid, and never even think to say no, and then when we do, they get all whiny. So that email was about par for the course.
But then the Lord God King of Accounting answered and he stood up for us! He ripped her a new one, and the best part was, he cc'd everyone and their mothers, too!
What a great day! What a lucky, happy person I am right at this very moment, and what a lucky, happy person I nearly always am. So I guess that entitlement thing is still going strong, ain't?
Today's
horoscope:
Passion flares sharply, quickly passing AND deeply consuming. Make sure you and your lover are in sync.
One year ago today:
"It's not a comedy! Stop fucking laughing at everything!"
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