8 March
Well, my show it over, my beloved show. It breaks my heart to think that I won't get to do it again any time soon. When I was first doing it, I said and meant that I would be perfectly happy doing it every night for the rest of my life, and it's still true. I will never, can never, get sick of it.
I am desperate to film it now, partially for all of the people who couldn't come because of the snow and the short run, but also because I have all of these shots in my head now, for all of the River Plays, not just mine.
It was too funny again last night. All of these laughs, from second one right through to the end. I wanted to stop and walk down to the audience and say, "It's not a comedy! Stop fucking laughing at everything!" but then I decided to just let it go.
This version of the show, this production, this show of mine and John's, that's what it is. It isn't what I consider correct, and it makes me take my character off in a direction that I don't want so as to head the audience off from going over a cliff, but they do love it and it clearly works, so there you go! I would have liked to do it with John more serious and eerie, like it was with Kevin, because I think that he would have been great that way, but I wasn't the director and too late now.
I'd like to cast him in Patrick's show, though, and then I will be his director! I'll have complete control over him! I'll make him dance to my bidding! Or, you know, not.
One of the reasons it was so funny, though, was because it followed "Lulu", which is really funny and very loud and cheerful at the end, so the audience was in a laughing place. When I film them, the order will be different.
I'm doing them taking place over a single day on the same riverbank, so "Whoppers" is fist, in the morning. It's also the lightest and funniest. "Lulu" is at lunchtime, and is also very funny, but has a tiny melancholy tinge to it. "Cherry Blend With Vanilla" is in the late afternoon, and it has much darker and sadder threads through it, because it is about a widow who cannot move on after her husband's death, and his ghost comes back to trick her into living her life again. And then "You Can Look But You'd Better Not Touch", which is strange and dark with funny lines, but has this feeling over it where you don't really know what's going to happen, but it feels inevitable. Following "Cherry Blend" is a smoother transition than following "Lulu".
I think that for "You Can Look", the camera will constantly be moving when it's on me, and still when it's on Kevin. That will work. It'll give Ed an aneurysm, but it'll work. And I'm going to have to shoot outdoors, which is a giant pain, and I'm going to have to find a riverbank with woods and trees and brush and no houses where there won't be all of these people around, and it will be so much more of a problem than shooting in Cynthia's kitchen. And I'll have to rent lights for the night shoot, and where will I plug them in!
But I'm doing "Naked Ambition" first, anyway. There I only have to find a large office with a desk and chairs and office-like decorations with no windows that I can shoot in for free where no-one will mind my having all these naked actors wandering around!
Life is getting more complicated by the minute.
Today's horoscope:
Time to plan a trip to visit family or friends who live far away. Put travel into your calendar.
One year ago today:
You can't go home again. And you can't vote there if you get there a little bit late.
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