So, tomorrow I find out about Sundance.

I have been fine all along, really, my goal was to make the deadline, not be accepted, as I said all along, and they get something like 4000 submissions for 30 slots, so my little $500 first film would be very unlikely to be chosen, and so I never let myself dream too hard about getting in.

Then, in my forum yesterday, Carol asked "PS Kymm, are you coming out here for Sundance?" and I was suddenly overwhelmed with a desperate desire to go.

I'm setting myself up for a fall, and don't think I don't know it, but I suddenly could see myself trudging through the snow, giggling like a loon because I was there, and I realized that I could go see the Jazz play at the Delta Centre, and I imagined sitting in a darkened screening room, hearing a whole audience laugh at my movie, and all I could think was that I so much wanted to go.

I'm setting myself up for a fall, I know, but in a way it's like Christmas Eve, the anticipation of the possible joy coming. Although there is more certainty of actually getting presents on Christmas Day, because it's alot more likely that I will get zip, but thinking about it is really pretty exciting.

O please o please o please...

What really unlikely thing do you want desperately?

And we're still talking about live sports, being thankful, Thanksgiving and recipes, days where every single little thing go wrong, sounds that you hate, loonies, weird sports, Hallowe'en costumes, death, and Rocky Horror.

Today's horoscope:
Today you can be very goal directed. What you set your heart and mind upon, you will accomplish.

One year ago today:
"Now Sheila is indispensable to the Malones. She teaches Johnny to say 'Pogue ma hone!', which means 'The back of my hand to ye!'"

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