2000 sounded so futuristic when it started, but 2001 sounds even more so! I cannot even imagine it being 2021 and 2001 sounding so very long ago.

Of course, 1981 is that long ago, and it doesn't seem like it can possibly be true that that was 20 years ago.

So, what have I accomplished this year, anything? I never feel like I have, because the start of the year is the same as the end of the year, I'm still alone, I'm still living in the Callahan's basement, I'm still broke, but on the other hand I'm still happy, I'm still content with my life even if every part of it is not how I ultimately want them.

It all depends on how you spin it.

My big accomplishment for the year was making the movie. I did several plays, acted and directed, including directing myself, but I always do that, that isn't anything special--making the movie and discovering that I have the ability to do this thing, make this thing that did not exist before I thought of making it was marvelously empowering.

The fact that it would have been impossible to make without Le's script, Cynthia's acting and art direction, Ed's camera work and editing and Jen's sound design does not detract from the fact that I think that it was all me. This auteur thing is awfully seductive.

Let's see, what else did I do this year? I went to Philadelphia a few times, and to San Francisco, and Michigan for my 18th high school reunion. I think that I have come closer to some of my friends, and not moved father away from too many of them, though that is part of the journey of life.

I saw about a shnillion movies and bought way too much stuff, books and DVDs and things, but everything that I do, everything that I get or buy or watch or read or listen to, is creating who I am. Or is that an excuse for being so sedentary?

My Top 10 Movies of 2000

Gladiator
X Men
Dancer in the Dark
State and Main
O Brother Where Art Thou
Traffic
High Fidelity
Jesus' Son
Almost Famous
Chicken Run

Resolutions

I think that I will make the resolutions that I always make, but I always have hope that I can keep them. Or at least one of them.

Lose weight. I had a picture in my head the other day, and I knew that it was in May, and I had dropped a bunch of weight. I have decided that I had had a glimpse of the future, just a peek, and that if I wanted it to come true, I would have to make it come true.

Keep the goddamn house clean. If I clean one room a week, I'll clean the whole apartment every month. I don't actually believe that I'll ever do this, but I like to think that someday I will.

Go to church every week. I like going to church, I just am not in the habit of doing it when I am in NY like I do when I am in LA. I'm going to find a church or several churches, like the one downtown and the one near work and the one that is more Catholic than Catholic and find out the schedules and just go.

Make at least one more movie.

Not buy anything the whole year. I really believe that I can do this for real. Of course, we'll have to see, but I have faith in myself that I can keep my wallet in my pants.

Finish the Molly book and send it out. Note that getting it published is not the goal, but giving it a chance to get published, whereas if I keep it only in my head it's pretty unlikely that it will be.

Have someone fall in love with me. Of course, this isn't something that I can really control, but I resolve it anyway.

What are your New Years Resolutions?

And we are still talking about dying our hair all kinds of colours, Disneyland, and what we got for Christmas.

Today's horoscope:
You notice the restrictions in a relationship, or feel someone is dominating and controlling you. Stand up for yourself.

One year ago today:
So, silly life here I come!

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