I was going to just stay home and stare at the walls yesterday, what with there being no matinee, but I really have SO much to do before going home for Christmas that I decided to go into the darkroom and work on some presents. I finally finished up Peter's headshots, the made his present, did the proofs and one blowup of the ones I did of Geoffrey all covered in blood (turned out GREAT!). I wanted to do all those Billy Bragg shots that I need to do, but the print I made for Peter was 11x14, a size I've never done before, so it took a while to figure out the timing.

By the way, the show went great last night. Everyone clicked and was doing really interesting work at last.

Bad news. Crush Boy, while he is still being friendly and bantering with me, is REALLY FLIRTING with Laurie, who certainly likes him back. It makes perfect sense, as she's much prettier than I am and has a fantastic body, but it's still no joy. And I can't even hate her, 'cause she's my best friend and confidant in the cast.

Have I mentioned that my life is a hideous morass yet? Well, it is.

You know, if you're a plain girl, like I am, and you're out in the regular world, it's a pain, to be certain, but at least there are others of your kind. It is much more difficult to be plain when you're an actor, because you are surrounded by a much higher percentage of really quite stunningly beautiful people, and if you have a bit of a self image problem, it gets alot worse when you're always the plainest girl in the room.

No matter how big that room might be...

O, these on-line journals, these on-line journals...
I am utterly entranced by them, especially Coffee Shakes, The Paperwork, Loose Leaves, Ubiety's Tangents, oZ Diary and the one that introduced me to the whole phenomenon in the first place, Elly's Slice of Cyberpie.

I adore them, but I am also hideously jealous of them, as I am by far the smallest and humblest of them all, and they all have about a jillion more regular readers than I do.
You know how many daily readers I have?

Two, that's how many.

I got Josh and I got Gary (I used to have another, but I frightened him away).
And then there's Robert, Cardigan, and Austin, who tend to check in every so often and catch up. And that is I-T! When you know all of your readers BY NAME, that's when you know that you are obscure with a capitol O.

Life was easier when I thought I was the only fish in the pond...

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